The date of February 9th marks exactly one year since I decided to make a change. On that very day in 2014 I was kind of struck by lightning and realized that my body cannot remain in the current state anymore. It’s a terrible shame to admit how terrified I was when two stretch marks appeared on my stomach. It was the fear that it may go even further that helped me to make an immediate decision – I had to do something about it! Things were going to get drastic in no time.
In just one afternoon I got rid of all the sweet things that were hidden in various kitchen cupboards and I banned the sweet sugar from my life, as it was the greatest nemesis of losing weight, the battle that I was about to begin. But getting rid of all sugar excess wouldn’t bring any effect if I didn’t do any excercise. I needed to start doing some training and here’s where some problems started. To do any physical activity right I have to focus. Going to the gym was a “no” for me as I prefered to do it alone, without any witnesses. I had two options – swimming pool, as water is the environment that allows me to focus instantly and I feel safe there (I’m Pisces for a reason) or to train at home.
Going to the swimming pool was hard to do regularly (mind you that this time last year I was still a student, commuting to Poznań and writing my master thesis) so doing some home workout seemed like the best option. I browsed through YouTube and other websites in search of some training routines for beginners. While doing so, I felt like I was going down. I became kind of obsessed with videos showing some “amazing” or “insane” body transformations picturing how some skinny teen turned into a muscular hunk over a couple of months. I felt envy watching these videos and at the same time I hear a voice inside my head – “hell no, I don’t want to look like that, I want to look normal, like a healthy young men, not like someone who wants to enter a bodybuilding competition.”
And then one day a little miracle happened. I found a video diary of a girl who was also fighting excess kilograms. In one entry she said “you’re not competing with others, you compete with yourself”. That was the sentence that I needed. I stopped watching those films that were taking my confidence and will-power away. Following that girl’s diary I found some good training programs. That was a set of a couple of videos, 10-15 minutes long. I started doing them regularly, anytime I could. Depending on the time I had, I could do all the videos one after another, or I could spend some less time working out. The idea was – it’s better to train for 10 minutes than not to train at all.
The beginning was tough, I couldn’t do some of the activities shown, or I could do them in small number of repetitions. But after a couple of weeks I noticed that I could endure more. That fact was very motivating to me. I also had a great support from my parents. My mum was preparing special, healthy dinners every single day. Nothing fried or made with the use of oil. I started eating only a whole grain bread, boiled or oven-roasted meat and fish. And since I love pasta, I switched for the healthier one, made of whole wheat grains. Month after month I was getting more fit and my body really got used to the exercises. Good results finally started to come in.
Today, a year after everything started I can proudly say that in the course of last 12 months I have lost over 25 kilograms of weight. My waist line used to measure around 108 centimeters, now it’s around 90. I went from wearing trousers in the size of 36 (or even 38 sometimes) to the size of 32 and all t-shirts, shirts or sweaters shrunk from L and XL to M. With lots of sweat, pain and doubt I won a fight against myself and my weaknesses. I have a different body, I also think a bit different about myself. I managed to make a change in my life! It’s the moment of triumph for me but the war is not over, it never will be over. I can never go back to where I was, I will have to keep up the good eating and exercising habits for the rest of my life. I think I can do it.